No Kissing Policy

Okay, I was writing on my last post about how the people at work found out about my "No Kissing Policy", as I call it. Everyone is always so curious about why I have this policy. Some people say, "Aww," others say, "Huh?" Some think it's good, some think it's bad. Some think it's smart, some think it's stupid. The one thing that stays consistent is that it makes a splash.

I think I've come up with three reasons that I have this policy. Two of them are legitimate, one of them isn't.

I'll start with the ones that are legit first.

#1. If I had kissed a guy and married another, I'd feel guilty for the rest of my life. I would feel sooooo bad! I feel like a kiss is something special that shouldn't be taken lightly. They shouldn't be given away like candy, there for the taking of anyone who asks nicely. Once you have given them, you can't take them back. Someday that might come back to bite you.

#2. I don't trust myself. Since I want to be married so badly. I think that allowing a guy to kiss me would be starting my mind winding down a bad path. Girls have a really hard time guarding their thoughts, and since I've wanted to be married for as long as I can remember, I think I'd be more prone to impure thoughts. I don't want to get myself or him in trouble with our thoughts, not to mention that thoughts lead to actions. Hmm. Not smart. Maybe you think I'm not giving myself enough credit, but I'd rather not give myself enough credit and stay safe, than send myself hurtling down a path I swore I'd never set foot on. Purity is about so much more than your body, it includes your emotions, thoughts and spirit. I want to be pure in every sense of the word for my husband. I want to save myself in every way for him. If he doesn't respect me enough for that, I'd say we have a problem. He would be cheating himself out of a lot of things.

#3. I'm scared to death! You may think this is ridiculous, even comical, but I'm really scared of kissing. I'm sure this fear will dissipate someday, but as of right now it is very prominent in my thought process. I guess I'm afraid that after a guy kisses me, he won't love me. I don't know. I know it sounds strange, (probably because it is strange) but I don't know how else to say it.

So, there you have it. That's why I have my policy, like it or not. I don't know if this helps you understand any better. Maybe you're just more confused, but that's the best I can explain it.

Kissing frogs is good enough for me!
Anna

Addendum:  I was on the right track with this.  Too bad I didn't heed my own advice.